26 Sep
Life is a beautiful flower
So effete in it’s fragility
It’s course sways
From sweet to sour
Fellow travelers unite
Temporary flocks
The storms rain red
Troops rupture overnight
Loved from a distance
Alone in the crowds
Skin’s separation
Flaws this existence
Riding the crimson waves
Playing with the BIG gin
I haven’t won yet
Still girded to my cave
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2011/Print Post
I keep forgetting to add these as I post them on Youtube.. So here are the most recent 5. Eventually I will switch over versions I host on my server instead of Youtube just in case anything happens… like Youtube implodes or something… but right now I am feeling too lazy.
If in category view, expand this post to see the videos
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2011/
Meet Super Bad Brad Prowly (Wikipedia article)…. This is the guy that Rocked the Apollo (Youtube link)
AWESOME guy!!!
Videos below are from various times over the last few years and I will add more as/if I ever get the chance.
He was passing through Binghamton, NY once again on March 11th, 2011 and made a stop at the Cyber Cafe West. The winter was harsh and Brad has been sporting a beard to keep his face warm:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2011/
12 Oct
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
12 Oct
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
07 Oct
I take photographs of eyeballs, then I play with them.
Ted by ~freyamoon on deviantART
See it bigger on deviantART!
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
05 Oct
I have a passion for eyeballs, and I am surrounded by people willing to indulge me.. I will be adding new ones all the time, and just updating the post date to put it back up top when I do.. the new ones should always appear at the top if I have this gallery working right. The thumbnails cut some of the pictures away, so just click on one to see the image if it catches your fancy. I have also started making eyeball art by manipulating these photos.. Some of them I plan on not even being recognizable as the original pictures. That stuff will be added to the Graphic art section. I plan on putting VERY high res eyeball art on my deviantART Account.. so on here it will just be a thumbnail with a link to it’s page there. If you know me and I took a picture of your eyeball and it is not here.. sorry! I may forget some.
Filed under Photography, in the year 2010/
05 Oct
I take photographs of eyeballs, then I play with them.
Sara by ~freyamoon on deviantART
See it bigger on deviantART!
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
This first one I made into a music video of sorts. Song is by “Collide”.
In this one I get my head chewed on by a zombie!
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2010/
04 Oct
I took these last month just got around to uploading them:) My Favorite is the 2nd one. If in Category view, click below to expand the post:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2010/
Click the picture to see the Photos:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2010/
20 Sep
Filed under Photography, in the year 2010/
12 Sep
Well actually just from the iris in..
I will be posting a ton of other eyeballs at a later date.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
03 May
I have a lot of the stuff I made in albums on facebook so instead of all the work of adding them here… click on the image below to go to a link that has them public (You do not even have to have a facebook account to view them). Currently there are 63 images.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
01 May
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2010/
21 Apr
Little something I made using Sims 3.. song by: Mazzy Star
If that does not work or you want to see it bigger, here it is on YouTube
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2010/
10 Nov
I’m also adding a little bonus video of Selene the day I brought her home. If you are in category view, please expand this post to view the video:
Filed under Photography, in the year 2009/
09 Sep
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2009/
23 Aug
If you are in category view, please expand this post to view the videos:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2009/
If you are in category view, please expand this post to view the videos:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2009/
05 Aug
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2009/
.jpg)
Follow the link:
Sacred Land
Filed under Photography, in the year 2009/
About 150 photos and 4 videos.
This is a link to a public album on facebook. You do not need a facebook account to view them. NY Faeriefest 2009 Photos
If you are in category view, please expand this post to view the videos:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2009/
03 May
This is a link to a public album of 103 photos on facebook. You do not need a facebook account to view them. WestFest 7 Photo Album
Montage video of a few moments from the event:
Filed under Event Photos&Videos, in the year 2009/
07 Apr
We choose what is shown
Unless taken from us…
In the heart of the strong
No concubine nor servants tread
Those who stand beside us
have nothing to dread.
We only rule one throne
that of our own
We only give and take
What is offered
The grace of giving
…expecting nothing
There lies our power
Being selfish
with our own energy
Is our right!
The strong are the vulnerable
In matters of the heart
But strength can be found by
being selective…
We all must create a fortress
for the good of the machine
Surface strength lies in the
brick and mortar
Deep strength lies with what
we are willing to let in
Doing what must be done
Once the choices are made
This fortress shall protect
The selected vulnerability
Which is the grace of humanity
Vulnerability must never
be confused with weakness
It just allows entry
Into our personal fortress
Think carefully, choose wisely
But above all keep yourself
It’s the inside, not the shell
that houses the soul
To steal is a weakness
To defend; pure instinct
Those who enter uninvited
will suffer the consequences
So choose your wars wisely
I have a hammer next to my bed
freya
(yeah not really poetry, just thoughts expressed pertaining to more than one subject)
—————————
“For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don’t believe, no proof is possible.” ~S Chase
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2009/
22 Mar
Quick and dirty…
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2009/
16 Mar
Source help me, but in gratitude
I will never fully understand you
I’ve learned to stop trying
I see only what you allow me to
I’ve even given up pursuits
In symbolism pining
OK, that last part was a lie
But I’m making the effort
To tell myself it’s nothing
I don’t expect you to empathize
With this strange dualistic rapport
Understanding it’s of my own designing
What I do and how I feel
Created this heart’s reality
As a romanticized cliche
But for me, it’s just as real
As with your own self actuality
It will never go away
I’ve lost my rhythm
But you know what?
It’s really OK…
I’ve been here many times before
These last few years
***
I will live moment to moment
Through laughter and tears
Rejoice in inspirations
And face my fears
A “real world” participant
I’m just going to “BE”
Remember what’s most important
And see where the wind takes me
If I am upset or angry
or just wallowing away,
I will take the next moment
to shove it all away…
But be warned I say truthfully
deep from my heart,
sometimes i like to feel pain,
so i take it apart.
Love is a battlefield
is what I’m trying to convey
I bleed but I heal
to fight another day!
freya
————
A smile confuses an approaching frown.
~Author Unknown
Be happy because you never know who’s falling in love with your smile.
~Author Unknown
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2009/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2009/
02 Feb
permalink to this post: http://www.spiritfreedoms.com/archives/795… I host my own and it’s faster than YouTube.
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here is is on Youtube
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2009/
24 Jan
Here is a creepy one .. Heavily edited clips (by me) from the Japanese psychological horror movie “Audition”. Song is by OTEP sharing the same name as this title.
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here is is on Youtube
Filed under Misc Videos, in the year 2009/
18 Jan
I blame Gary for this one.
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Misc Videos, in the year 2009/
14 Jan
Song is Moloko, “Over my Head”
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2009/
07 Jan
Song by: Nightmares on Wax
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Misc Videos, in the year 2009/
03 Jan
Song is Goldfrapp’s “Forever”
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2009/
23 Dec
Song is “Over and Over” by: Morcheeba
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Machinima, in the year 2008/
19 Dec
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
29 Nov
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
29 Nov
gray matter senselessness
inflamed quintessence
intuition damning me
knowing with full certainty
looking will just testify
the discounted approbation
or innocent indifference
to the layers of injury
this fascination’s wrought
eyes upturned to
imaginary sunshine
the grace of fingertips
an unseen pantomime
of ten digits intertwined
Melancholy devilment
Surrender to the muse
Put away the toys and
listen to the silence
my back is bruised
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Damn you are a hot little number
Baby face you are a true heart breaker
Eyes so blue I could drown in their sea
Sometimes I wish that was enough for me
Hair like wheat in the midday sun
Smooth as a preacher meant for everyone
Smile in innocence,
sad soul countenance
Like what I hear,
but feels like pretense
You say that you are done but your voice betrays you
The waver in your words makes me want to save you
It’s not an option anyway my mind is settled
Bout one thing in my life that’s not still nettled
I learned a thing or two from living in this sea
And it’s rare that this universe finds anyone that gets me
Oh and hair as soft and light as baby wheat
Rare touch remembered more so uniquely sweet
I KNOW what’s beautiful in a thousand ways
Head so light and furry, in the most retarded daze
Voice from the tongue of a god
Beautifully, perfectly odd
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
24 Aug
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
19 Aug
Sweet beautiful abscess
Seditious root adored
I swim in purulent desire
A lady without a lord
Decomposing affliction
Embraced with poignant sighs
It’s tender bitter yearning
Poisoned apple of my eye
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
11 Aug
I’m tired of playing little miss nice girl
Meek and wishing on the fscken stars
Keeping my heart like a precious pearl
It’s never gonna get me very far
Why can’t I be as the black widow
Take a mate I care nothing about
Feed my hunger just a little
Then chew them up and spit them out
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
11 Aug
Raw meat still pumping
A base drum thumping
Feed it to the maggots
It’s already slumping
Let the wolves tear it apart
Just raw meat tainted in every way
An inconsequential body part, take it
I don’t feel alive anyway
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
09 Aug
Soul of fire that yearns for touch
Sheathed in resolute celibate faith
Tender heart that has seen too much
Now I run from the shadow of my wraith
Is this feeling that I’m dreaming
some fucked up thought in my head?
Is it darkness that deceives me
as I lie alone in my bed?
Will my heart wither away
leaving barely a shred?
Death’s door beckons to me
Though not the death of my flesh
It’s this fear of stagnation
Growing deep in my breast
I say I’m through with zombies
But they’re not through with me
All these mental apparitions
My personal Judas tree
Can sugar plums dance
behind the eyes of the dead?
Is letting go of my dreams
really something to dread?
Or will giving up the ghost
set me free instead?
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
09 Jul
Some people show their love and pain
In short, but violent bursts
Others try to hold it all in
The weight, an accumulating curse
We suffer through day by day.
Tribulations by fire is the lover’s way
Maybe they prefer you feel as they feel?
And you refuse to be coerced
Some just do as they think expected
Life’s “manuscript” rehearsed
Feeling too much all the caring and hate
The pain and the love this world creates
With little logic and a lot of passion
On the surface and submersed
What we feel is not always expressed
In some known predictable verse
Through a million minds all reaching out
Still most of it I could do without
*
*
*
*
*
*
If you CAN see the forest for the trees
Yet savor the sight of early morning dew
Then someday, I want you to BE with me
What one can accomplish is enhanced by TWO
But if I don’t have that hand to hold
Suffering gladly in ourselves and for others
Then at least about my life it can now be told
That there will never be another
The closer to our hearts
The more we are affected
Feelings hold on stubbornly
Like a nasty wound infected
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
28 Jun
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
27 Jun
After 6 weeks of keeping and losing hope
I never thought that I could cope
With the ending of you lying there
Almost to the last, knowing you were still aware
Of the broken body with nothing spared
You watched us gather around you, not sure why
Because no one bothered to tell you, you were about to die
The fear in your eyes..
I remember how afraid you were to get on the list for a new lung. You didn’t want to die like this. You told me you could live another year or two or risk dying much more soon on the hope of a new lease on life. You were assured you were the perfect candidate.. No problem they said… You would be back home within 3 weeks… they do this sort of thing all the time.
Even I pushed in that direction, told you put your life first for once. It was was your turn to live again… you finally consented, you had given in. You even became excited as the statistics reassured, a man like you not coming though this was almost unheard of.
The perfect candidate they said, but now you are dead.
You had to whither away as you lied in that bed.
The thing you feared the most came true.
No.. even worse.
You feared you would die on the operating table,
but 6 weeks of decline your body unstable..
Immune system gone, your body broke down,
a slow and painful way to go, the fear of death drawn out..
I wish it had been me and not you
just to spare you from what I helped talk you in to.
I was as selfish as everyone else..
wanting a lifetime instead of another year or two.
I had hope and faith that you would get through.
The Dr’s were baffled but they didn’t give up on you,
until there was nothing else they could do.
We killed you with love..
we just needed you.
I begged for a miracle,
I even prayed for one.
I didn’t want to accept it.
It’s not fair when a man like you is gone from this earth.
When your heartbeat reached zero, it shattered the earth.
All the sudden I heard such wailing and sounds like an animal dying..
then I realized, it was coming from me.
I fell to the floor and chewed on my wrist, you were gone…
it should NOT have happened like this.
They PROMISED us it would not happen like this!
Never again will I grab your forehead and force a raspberry kiss:(
Never again will I be able to listen to your advice.
You told me to love a man without forcing…
you told me love for it’s sake is worth knowing.
You taught me patience is a virtue by your own example.
You taught me that men can be gentle and you always feared of me getting hurt.
You wanted someone to protect me that would also respect me.
You wanted me to love only that which is deserving of me.
You told me I was worth someone and never sell short.
You told me seek what I know I need in my heart and I will find it.
You taught me love can be suffering and the rode to happiness a long one.
You told me to “wait and see”… same thing you told my mother about me,
when I ran away so many times…
you knew I would come back,
and you had faith I would grow …
that you would be proud of me.
You let me make my own mistakes,
but you were always there to catch me if I asked you to.
Most of the time, I was stubborn like you.
I didn’t always listen, you were only a guide,
you let me figure things out,
even those times I had to run and hide.
You were reserved with your emotions
except when i coaxed them out,
but if I fell in your arms with tears,
you were there to let me cry it all out.
You never once coddled me,
but you also never rejected me.
You loved it when I teased you
because you knew how much I loved to see you smile.
Even lying there in agony,
you saved one last smile for me,
one last knowing wink for me.
When others had given up on you,
I just prayed with all my hope…
“wait and see”…
just wait and see.
But i was wrong and my heart is breaking
because I am all out of “wait and see”…
I couldn’t give up on it until it was gone,
because you never gave up on me..
I want to make you proud of me!
Wait and see daddy, my Zen..
I know you are all around me now..
so you just wait and see,
but keep having that patience with me…
because it is going to be a long ugly road filled with misery,
but I will keep every word you have ever said to me.
I know you are proud of me.
And i am proud of you too,
for everything you do.
But you just wait and see daddy, my Zen..
I don’t feel strong right now,
I feel like the world has crumbled around me now.
Please don’t be disappointed in me… just give me time…
just “wait and see”…
I need you daddy, so I will keep you close to me,
as close as can be… right here in my heart.
I know that pain on my face and
tears in my eyes always tore you apart..
But I need to grieve for you and for the long road ahead…
but I will come through, because you have faith in me too,
so it MUST be true!
I will have to learn to live without you
as my mother will too.
Someday daddy, I will find a man like you
who will love me and respect me like you always wanted me to..
I will someday have somebody who is a lot like you,
and I know you will be proud of him too.
I am so glad I was able to say goodbye and tell you just how much I love you.
I know you already knew, but I said it so rarely.. in words anyway… but you knew…
Those raspberry kisses and weird looks they got me,
and the look in your eyes saying you loved me too.
Even lying there in pain, you made sure to mouth the words,
though no sound could come out… you loved me.
I miss you!
What the fuck am I going to do without you!??
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
21 Jun
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
09 Jun
Written May 6, 2008 but archiving now.
—————————————-
Though pain and suffering
Try to take our hearts down
Hope and faith in something
Can always bring us around
I have faith in you
In the strengths you possess
Until you breathe deeply
My hope will not rest
Just breathe deeply, love
For life is so precious
Take a moment, love
If you’re feeling this restless
If your dreams fall short
Of the fire within you
Just breathe deeply
And you’ll see the way through
Never take for granted
What is right before you
Just breathe deeply
Life is waiting for you
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
06 Jun
Just something I did when life wasn’t getting in the way.. Umm.. took longer than I expected (due to the life stuff)
Autopsy ~ OTEP Music Video
Download bigger version 15.5mb .mp4 / 720×480 (you can right click/save as… or just click if you have a quicktime plugin as it will play the mp4 format … it’s a nice copy if you don’t mind the load time)
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
expand this post
for lyrics:
Filed under Misc Videos, in the year 2008/
Nothing but a delusional invention
Hope is sorrow’s greatest weapon
Blinded once, but now I see
To hope, our greatest tragedy
Nothing but an affliction
A proven bastardization
Accentuating contention
Culled by ambiguous rejection
Mocks in it’s absurdness
Acrid in it’s bareness
Helpless in it’s poisoned grasp
As hope begins it’s painful rasp
Freedom through annihilation
Emotional cauterization
Starve it of tranquility
Relish emotional poverty
All feeling is a weakness
Find comfort in the darkness
The moment hope begins to fly
Is the moment you begin to die
~FM
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
01 May
preoccupation with the immersion..
i’ve got a prepossession infection.
coalesce at the junction, forming
one mass with separate functions
override preconceptions,
erode self deceptions..
say goodbye to the rust,
but keep the exceptions
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
22 Apr
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
21 Apr
Or just my brain?
*****************
I don’t know what I’m doing here
I waste my life in dreams I fear
What purpose is there staying near
There is no waiting ship to steer
In this sea of ceaseless babbling
The gibbering and jabbering
..badgering and bragging
To my ears it all seems baffling
I’ve long since shed MANY futile tears
My pleas for something said sincere
Yet mark my word, it’s still unclear
Perhaps I just need a fucking beer!
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
20 Apr
I have a LOT of unfinished things so I thought since I don’t feel like making anything new, I would start finishing what I already have. I started this one about 2 months ago… I think.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
19 Apr
HMMMM …. My EYEBALL
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
16 Apr
It’s too late for everything.
Nothing is real till it’s gone :(
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
Down in the world
of the ellipses…
The silence of
the patterns
of this life
settle big booms
that are QUITE
frightening…
Gonna build myself a fortress
Gonna lock a *few* dreams away
Gonna build myself a fortress
But I’ll be back again someday
Reality is the undercarriage
Where the dirt and mud puddles
in their union splash up
Everything else is built
on top of that reality through
circumstance and make-believe
No one cares to look at
the undercarriage, let alone
clean it up once in awhile
maybe they would see the
beauty under the dirt
Gonna throw sadness out my window
Gonna hug myself when I feel bad
Gonna lock away all the lonelies
For the things I’ve never had
We do what has to be done to
trick ourselves into happiness
We fake it till we make it
because life has to be lived!
But does that mean we just give
UP our own delusions to
replace them with the shared
delusions of the masses?
is that what happiness is?
To be stupid or purposefully blind?
Gonna feel the darkness of my shadow
Gonna keep my head up in the air
Gonna plant my feet in murky waters
As I feel the things I dare not share
One layer at a time gets put away
once addressed or said goodbye to
One pile for whats meant to keep
One pile you know eventually
you’ll have to get back to
Nothing ever goes away it just
adds to who we are in our world
of self and mass delusions picked
at and judged by living in a society
of self-hatred and shame for anything
thought different by another instead
of just living and not worrying if
there is ANYBODY who can get it right
because there is NO wrong or right it’s
just people living and breathing and
NEEDING a reason to get by in whatever
way makes them feel ALIVE so long as
they keep to tending their own gardens
and not trying to tend to yours unless
it’s a garden your sharing and this is
just one long run-on and poorly structured
sentence and who the fsck cares… right?
Gonna build myself a fortress
Gonna lock a *few* dreams away
Gonna build myself a fortress
But I’ll be back again someday…
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
25 Mar
love -s
insecurity -sh
confusion -s
friendship –human-readable
loyalty -sh
man -h
cp loyalty loyalty 2
mv loyalty2 …
man man
man heart
-f confusion
-k heart
mv heart
mv heart
sudo mv heart
password?
password?
password?
…
man …
cd .
cd ..
cd …
Ctrl+b
Ctrl+k
Ctrl+b
Ctrl+k
Ctrl+b
Ctrl+k
Ctrl+b
…
cd …
man …
man friendship
-k friendship
Ctrl+a Home
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
18 Mar
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
17 Mar
Language is a funny thing
It percolates it’s transmissions
As it mutates into something
More truthful than it’s original intention
Call it as you see it
Correct the words
I choose to convey
It’s nothing new
Love is the word,
the Alpha and Omega.
The beginning and the end,
all leading back to you.
Like the sun feeds roses,
it nourishes me.
I try to close my eyes to it…
what else is left for me to do
Past the muddy waters of
my emotional retardation,
what’s left of me is broken.
Wishing this was “THE
ONE” battle I could win
But defeat shall be my mantra
I’m broken…
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
02 Mar
.Blood_Rose {
Wounds cauterized
By the Judas Kiss of
Inevitability’s abyss
Once upon a time
I believed…
}
fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2008/
Have had this on the front page for a week or two. Now archiving it as a new one is coming shortly.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
There is a sun to stand before
long enough to dry all tears
There is a moon to light the way
from yesterdays fears
There is an opal to distract you
from the fallacies you hear
But the sun seems blotted
by depths uncharted
The moon’s been tainted
The opal has no gleam
There is a knowing deep inside
that you can always find
There is a whisper one must heed
if you only choose to shine
There is a way to say goodbye
to what you choose to leave behind
But knowing seems blinded
The whisper’s gone silent
And saying goodbye means
so much more than it seems
Why is this?
~fm
In particular, the Blue Opal:
Enhances your ability to communicate what is in your heart
Helps in overcoming those things you do to yourself that are harmful
Edit: Apparently I have a delusive mind.. in so doing, I have harmed myself… go figure:(
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
06 Feb
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
Before investing yourself in love.
Will I see you in
the Summer lands
Will you be the one
who understands
Should I invest my
heart through ALL
that path’s directions
Can you see beauty
in life’s ugliness
Does your heart still
beat when loneliness
Tries valiantly to save
you from all hurts
Can you see misery
loves company
And heartfelt words
are meant to be
With gladdened
souls who’ve
found
Everything…
ebbs and flows
But
you know
that
in the end
That hand
is
always
there
~freya
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
I want to assault you
with kisses
Stab you in the heart
With my love
If you press charges
They can toss me in
Throw away the key
Though I’d rather you
Shut yourself inside with me
If loving you
Is a crime
Then I want to
Do the hard time
Lock me out of sight
If you can’t love me
Because all I WANT..
Is to imprison YOU!
I would never
Set you free
I just want you
To be with me
~freya moon
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
31 Jan
Literally!
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
30 Jan
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
29 Jan
Om mani padme hum
So I spent ALL day (since about 6am.. so roughly 12 hours) making a new MySpace Layout featuring a woman being “born” from a lotus. I had to do one of my versions of *meditating* to get my mind off a few insane things and this is what I came up with:) This was the most time I ever spent making a layout.
It was a little tricky getting the above graphic laid on just right to match it’s spot on the lotus.. ton of tinkering with the Div placement… but I am pretty happy with it. This thing is just full of layers:)
I also had my reasons for going with all BxW too, but it’s sort of silly.. colors were distracting me. heh.
You can always see it bigger by going to the profile if you care too…
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
26 Jan
Bright lighted confidence
in your presence…
I feel more when I am near you
And just weirded out when you go
And I can’t help
But talk about
how wonderful
I think you are.
Because then
I feel good
again
And I do it for no other reason than
Everything I say in my heart is true
Whenever it speaks of you…
Shift down, no reverse
I wish I had left with you
I could have
had the
opportunity
to steal
one more
hug
~fm
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
Ode to that which keeps me
warm in the night,
you always take the chill
from those cold lonely nights
No matter when I seek you,
you are there to enfold me
As often times I scorn you,
you linger near patiently.
Whether night be the dark,
or the full daylight
You are always there for me,
my ersatz knight
Tra lala.. tralala…. laaaa
~fm
(it’s my electric blanket of course!)
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2008/
24 Jan
Looking at my stats more often, I saw a referral to my site from The Migraine Aura Foundation. I had made a picture after a headache in 2001 and named it Migraine… then in 2005 this fellow who has the above website contacted me saying he was going to be putting said website together and asked if he could use the picture and talked about his plans for the site. I said.. sure. And I offered another one if he wanted it. Then he wanted me to fill out a VERY long survey about migraines. Then I never heard from him again.
Today I saw a site referral from there and it turns out he put the pics up 2 years later! Last March.. But I didn’t find out until today.. or if I did, I don’t remember.. I may never have come across it if not for the referral link. (tells you what site someone came from to see your site). Anyway, I thought it was kind of cool..
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
18 Jan
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2008/
Goldfrap’s “Ohh La La” to the video footage of Tommy Seebach’s “Apache”. I edited out a lot, made BxW, added some nice glow.
Having problems or want to see it bigger? Here it is on Youtube
Filed under Misc Videos, in the year 2008/
That’s it! I’m going back to the Sims2. they have gotten even better..
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
10 Dec
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
08 Dec
New release in my Sanguine Dreams theme; an animated world bathed in a sea of blood.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
06 Dec
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
06 Dec
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
30 Nov
How do you get so many to want you as you hurt? Willingly exposed throats to rip open; you’re never blamed for the pain.
How do you get so many to swim in your murky depths? Welcoming the unknown with fear and excitement.. grounded in anxiety and self doubt, yet never doubting you.
How do you change so much yet stay the same? How do you continue when everything else dies? How do you make it possible to feel another person surround you with just a thought? What is it about you that can make a gentle person kill?
Why are you so scary?
Why are you so demanding?
Why are you so neglectful?
Why are you so needy?
Why are you so insightful?
Why are you so dumb?
Why are you so observant?
Why are you so damn blind?
Why are you the reason?
Why are you the answer?
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2007/
25 Nov
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
24 Nov
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
22 Nov
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
20 Nov
Web-comic Character
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
15 Nov
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2007/
09 Nov
The zombies are just in our heads.
And yeah, playing with IMVU again. Each one had to be done seperate (only have one changable avatar at a time. Put it all together in PSP.
Click to see bigger.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
08 Nov
Filed under Thoughts, in the year 2007/
05 Nov
Grounded in our perceptions
Heartbeat encased in the shell
That temporarily binds us to
Our personal heavens and hells
Everything around me
Is fuzzled by the filters
Of our collective perceptions,
Swayed by all the worlds inflections
But the loudest beats that I hear
Are coming from the base of me
How deep I am willing to go
Is only limited by fear
Tossing aside all other noise for a bit
I listen to the beat of my own drum
All that is worth knowing
Has a rhythm in tune with
Your own heartbeat
All the rest is just noise
Get in touch with the base
And let the ears stay open
As Soul Motor purrs to the
Waves in the rhythm
What I choose to see
Is not exactly what others will see
What I choose to become
Will always be what I get
May I never fully become
May I always be evolving
~Freya Moon
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2007/
Where you will find me
There is no shelter there
Naked, down on my knees
With the soul laid bare
Lungs filled with the dust
Of desiccated entities
Going in circles with
Half-faded memories
When fate touched me
I wanted to scream
It tried to destroy me
I started to dream
Deep into the looking glass
Cold as ice with trials by fire
What breaks us so to creates us
Deep is the roots of life’s desires
Flames licking at my heels
Through Lightened corners
And darkened corridors
I crave the extremes
Though we are never truly alone
We must fight our wars on our own
Through fire and ice I want to roam
In my deepest waters I am truly home
The future lays on the other side of of the glass
Freya Moon (10/25/07)
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2007/
21 Oct
Just thought I would start doing some screen captures of my layouts. This is the current one. Took me forever to get exactly how I wanted it, though it looks pretty simple. The letters up top are scrolling. Though the whole thing is smaller than any of the previous ones, there are more layers. Each candle has it’s own DIV along with a few other things. May add a few more divisions, but most of the space is taken up and it “feels” almost perfect after lots of tweaking.
The pic is a link to the profile, but really not much else to see except the candles are animated. And yes, it’s all pretty much #990000.
Filed under Graphic Art, in the year 2007/
19 Oct
Lying on a bed of silk and rose petals
Confederate to the strongest of swords
Ivory scabbard lined with red velvet
Fervent for the reuniting with her lord
Through the dark night of the soul
He emerges to live another day
Seeking shelter in a gentle touch
His heart and mind lead the way
Sword:
Out of blood, sweat, and tears
My steel’s been sainted
By daylight’s burdens
In dullness painted
Scabbard:
Sheath your sword good sir!
Let my velvet surround you
Let me hold you in comfort
Let my touch renew you
Sword:
Little scabbard so gentle
Don’t love me in vain
I fear I might hurt you
I’ve seen too much pain
My blade has grown dull
It’s lost all it’s gleam
I am tired and broken
You know not what I’ve seen
Scabbard:
At night I will enfold you
Caress the dullness away
Let your shine be my beacon
It will show me the way
I am more than ornamental
My heart for you weeps
Let me sharpen life’s passions
Let me hold you as I sleep
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2007/
If life is just a masquerade to bare
Facade so thin it’s barely there
Why feel the flames of sunshine’s grace
Or fall into a lover’s warm embrace
Why frequent places bringing joy
If abundant pleasure begins to cloy
When looking on through somber eyes
A life much lived through darkened skies
Why have faith in spirited dreams
All frayed and tattered at the seams
When past and present have no thrill
When life’s a swallowed bitter pill
Though pounding rhythm beats thy chest
Night brings the wayward heart to rest
It aches not from daylight’s insecurities
But from the touch of mortal surety
In the darkness there is a knowing
In velvet touch life’s river flowing
Without a moment’s hesitation
Fraught with ardent aspiration
Give ear to heart song’s words intently
Use sleep’s embrace to guide you gently
There is a beauty in life’s ugliness
If you desire to persist
~Freya Moon (10/18/07)
Filed under Poetry, in the year 2007/
Chaos Generator![[Facebook]](data:image/png;base64,iVBORw0KGgoAAAANSUhEUgAAABAAAAAQBAMAAADt3eJSAAAAGFBMVEUAAAA7WZhFYp5geKtheaxthLTr7vT///+84mf+AAAAAXRSTlMAQObYZgAAAD1JREFUCNdjYIABFkEwcGBghDAEwAzh9EIIQ6wcyhAvFERliJdDpcTSyxJxqIEwmEJDQ8NLQxUQDLilMAAADdYQQtgyGQQAAAAASUVORK5CYII=)
![[MySpace]](data:image/png;base64,iVBORw0KGgoAAAANSUhEUgAAABAAAAAQCAMAAAAoLQ9TAAAABGdBTUEAALGPC/xhBQAAAEhQTFRFAAB3AACAADNmADOZADOhMwCZMzNmMzOZM2ZmM2aZM2bMZjOZZmaZZpmZZpnMmZmZmZnMmczMzMz/zP//3d3d8PDw/v7+////D9+SIgAAAJVJREFUGNM9jlESwyAIRC1LJaTGGBPq/W9aiJmu44fPxw5pRKxf41tJNhtp2LGflag1MHFzcIFaEmgFGMXSODPaApTtBf9yYEWvrqWfmiHmoDBkU21m1a93rG4yM6oA+ZhGvD3k97iNJ4E/bhDJn0F8D+s69ciSfG+TqT+GZyGi9+wNYHFsdrOGYTFW5ky+jYDrXUzyA9rKCnp7ICn5AAAAAElFTkSuQmCC)
![[Email]](data:image/png;base64,iVBORw0KGgoAAAANSUhEUgAAABAAAAAQAgMAAABinRfyAAAACVBMVEX+/v4AAJn////DAT4IAAAAA3RSTlP//wDXyg1BAAAALklEQVQI12OYGhoaxhAKBMgEAxCFODCKMoQIsAAJFgEgwegA44IkwErQtIGMAgB/zw/sM9ledQAAAABJRU5ErkJggg==)
